Well, I'm back after about what... 2 and a half years or so? Well all I can say is that a lot has changed since I was 13.

I grew away from people, I fell in love, I fell out of love, I learned what depression really is, I've experienced and tried things I shouldn't have and I've been through counseling.

Let's just say the era between 14 and 15 years old really sucked.

But I'm 16 now, and a junior in high school. Things are okay. I tried getting with someone who stole my heart with his eyes. (Does that make sense?) It didn't work. But his old best friend... is stealing my heart, but I don't know if he'll feel the same. I'm too scared to talk to him in person much longer than a simple "Hey" or "Good morning".

Other than guy problems, I'm good. I have a lot more friends now. I don't have a band anymore. I don't like Green Day as much as I used to, and I barely ever play drums. I still play guitar occasionally, and I believe when I was 13 I was incredibly close minded. I wanted to be something I wasn't, and I didn't want to listen to anything except Green Day and "punk rock". I wanted to be friends with people who dressed like me. Let's just say... My music taste has expanded a lot since then, and I don't really care who I'm friends with these days as long as they are true to me.

Amazing how much changes in such little time. But I'm pretty good now. I have friends. I have my family. I still don't see my brother like normal but at least I saw him a little bit over the years.

Even though I'm 16, I'm still figuring out who I am. I'm sure all this confusing stuff hasn't ended yet, it's only getting worse.

But I'm strong, none the less.